Happy Birthday Mom!

Hope you have a great day today! Thanks for all you do for our family. You are the base behind our family that holds us together. You always find the time to make everyone feel loved and cared for. You are always there for us when we need you no matter what time of day it is., Thanks for being there for me on multiple occasions usually at the drop of a hat. I have the best mom in the world! Treat yourself to something special today and do something fun, you deserve it! Love you Mom!

Soo Not Funny!

I love this "card" that my aunt Sharon sent me a while back in an email with a lot of other funny cards. I had to save it for this post right before our cruise!!!! I can't believe my ticker says less then 4 days. But...... My mom sent me an email this morning with "CRISIS" in the subject line. the message said that there was a problem with the ship and that our cruise could be delayed or postponed! What the Heck! Matt and I were so bummed and were thinking about what we were going to do if it was cancelled. Little did I know that my mom played an awful April Fools day joke on all of us! Shame on you mom, but good joke! we are so glad it is not true! see you Sunday:)

I have struggled with the idea of writing about this , which i found here but i am hoping it helps me deal with this roller coaster ride we are on that seems will never come to an end. I am a very private person and find it hard to talk about things that are bothering me or hurting me. My husband can ates to this unfortunately. With my past health issues i have learned to just stay strong and persevere through all the "crap" and things will get better. It is because of Gods will and my faith that i am here today, that i know is true. Nothing has ever really come easy for me, almost everything seems like a battle and it gets really tiring. I don't mean for this to become a venting post but i am really struggling today as to what to do and which path we should go.

I don't like the person i have become over this past year....angry, jealous, anxious, depressed, confused, guilty, sad. i want to start living again, become who i used to be before all of this became our daily purpose. I hope this helps people to maybe understand what matt and i are going through . My hopes are that opening up and "talking " to my friends and family will help me heal and become who i am meant to be. Matt and I have some important things to think about and i hope this upcoming vacation will give us the chance to reflect and shed some light on what it is we should do.

We have had many people give suggestions as to what we should and shouldn't do and i understand there concern, as i have the same concerns. but i feel like i need to have faith that everything will be alright. That is what got me through tough times in the past. But then again, is the reason I am not becoming pregnant Gods way of telling me to not force the issue. Maybe there is a different plan for us and we're just not listening. We just want a baby!

We just need some extra prayers to help guide us in the best way possible so please send them our way if you feel the need.

I hope this post came out right and not just me complaining, forgive me if it sounds that way.

Spring has Sprung!

Today is the first day of spring and I am welcoming it with open arms. I love this time of year! the trees are in bloom and the flowers are starting to bloom. I am itching to plant some flowers but am trying to hold off till we get back from our cruise. Happy Spring!

Happy St. Patricks Day!

26:51

Matt and Kyle ran in the Bidwell Classic in Chico on Saturday. They both did great and should be very proud of themselves. Matt's official time was 26:51 min and Kyles time was 28:08 min for 3.1 miles. There were about 500+ people who were registered to run and Matt came in # 161 and Kyle came in # 180. I waited at the finish line with my camera in hand. I am very proud of you Matt for completing your first race. Keep up the good work.


Before the race
timing is everything! Ready, Get set , Go!
Matt coming in. ( if you click on the photo you can see him better)
Kyle coming in.

Long Time No See!!!!

We had the pleasure of having Matt's mom Ann come visit in February. we haven't seen her since her last visit in June of last year. we picked her up at the airport on Sunday and she was with us till Tues when she went to Chico to spend get some Josie time in. although we had an unexpected visit on Monday when Josie and Barb came down and we played and visited all afternoon. I am sure it was a great surprise to ann!Grandma Ann was in heaven. Coloring was great fun and so was duck duck goose! we miss you already Ann and can't wait till the next time we can all be together again.